Stop when you are already hurting, stop when you think you are no longer growing because of too much pain, and stop if you know that you are waiting for nothing. I want to be happy that's what I usually say yet I am not doing anything to be that person who I want to be. I am settling for maybe(s), for what if(s), for safe answers, for unrealistic moments, and for promises which were already broken, maybe because I want to feel something from that person, I want to feel that I am important, that somewhere in between I want him to look at me even once. I forgot to look at myself, I didn't see how special I am, and I didn't realize how worth it I am.
I am tired of being the second option, I don't want to look at myself and say how pathetic I am because I am waiting for someone to comeback and fulfill all his promises, and I don't want to be stupid anymore. I need to break free, I need to conquer every fear that I have, and I have to stand with my own feet. I know that he doesn't know this but the amount of pain that I am feeling right now is not something that he is familiar with. This pain can make me the strongest girl that he'd encountered, this girl will never be destroyed by anything that is superficial, and this girl wouldn't be afraid to love again after everything that happened. I can survive you and you will not be the last guy that I will love. You are not the last guy on earth and in case you don't know it yet, I am a bitch, baby. :)
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