Another Lesson

This is the time for new beginning and for a new life –that’s what I am thinking whenever I am seeing you. It’s as if you liberated me and you gave me the power to soar high and pursue anything. Instead of being negative and thinking of anything else you allowed me to leap my feet and walk towards the end of the road where we will go on separate ways. It is as if the pain that I’ve experienced made me realized how precious I am, how deserving I am to be happy, and how much people love me. Even though I have nothing but a broken spirit I have time to heal all wounds and I survived the catastrophe that life has given me.

I thought that life’s lessons are nothing but sugar-coated words or a consolation in everything that a person has to experienced but no life’s lessons allow you to choose better things and to make you realize what you really want. Honestly I wanted you to run to me before, I want you to beg and realize how worth it I am, but the truth is I am the one who should run to myself and I should be the one who should realize my worth as a person. Yes, you cannot reciprocate the love that I gave you but the hardest thing to realize is I didn’t even try to love myself even once. You can reject me over and over again and make me hope for nothing but I know that it was my choice whether to stay or not after all.

Now I have to open a new book and I have to ease the pain. As the cliché goes “I have to love myself first before loving other people.” If this thing happens I won’t be afraid to love again because of I know that I can give more love not just to that someone but to myself as well and I am whole and not waiting and depending my wholeness to someone that I will love. Now it will be over and I will face everything with my head high and I will treasure every moment.